Ok guys…….I know I have not written in a long time but my life is hectic! I was honestly going to stop blogging because I don’t have much to write about that would interest anyone. At least that’s how I feel.
Well today I just had to write. Kind of soothe the soul writing.
Let me go back a little and then come back to why I am writing this.
I did not want to bring this up, for fear my family would read this, but almost nine years ago I lost a child. (Woooo) Hard to even write this.
She was my daughter and she was three. I don’t want to go into to much detail because it starts to tear down the “strength” wall I have built. You see I give the outwards appearance to my family and friends that I am strong and honestly that is why I don’t want to go into details for fear my family would read this. They hurt for my daughter and for me, I feel as if I show them I am strong I somehow lessen their pain. I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone but it’s the truth.
So I was twenty seven at the time and had lived twenty seven FANTASTIC YEARS. My mother was a single mother, worked two jobs to raise us. Ever moment she had with us was made special. Although it was rough for her she made our lives so “rich” we didn’t even realize we (I have a brother and two sisters) didn’t have much. Looking back I am amazed how she did it.
I’m just trying to quickly tell you a few things so you can later understand why I did what I did. (Sorry I am bouncing around like crazy; I hope you can follow this).
I got married young and had my first son (who is now 17) and was a stay at home mom. When he was five I had my daughter.
LIFE was great. I had two kids, not much money but enough to enjoy life with my husband and children. O I almost forgot I was the youngest of my siblings AND SPOILED! So spoiled and self centered. I wouldn’t even go to the mailbox to get the mail if my hair wasn’t done; I was scared the neighbors would see me! And I married a man who spoiled me even more. So here I was living a good life and BAM I received the biggest smack in the face from God. I think he was saying HELLOOOOOO wakeup and enjoy what you have.
Looking back I think I took all of it for granted and never realized how truly blessed I was. I was all about looking good and enjoying the materialistic things I had.
After losing my daughter my life just became one roller coaster after another. Every turn a new trial awaits me. Sometimes I look up looking for the black cloud that’s following me. Sometimes I think I should write a book about everything that has happened in the past 8 almost 9 years but I don’t think anyone would believe it; they would think its fiction. Honestly IT’S a lot of crazy happenings. Anyway the latest “trial” was almost a year ago my husband came home and said I think I might be let go from work soon because they are looking to get rid of my department. I don’t think I slept that night. Here I am living paycheck to paycheck barely making ends meet and am drowning. If he lost his job what would we do? So I tossed and turned all night thinking what I can do to change my life. What am I good at that I can make money? For years I have been creating custom made items for my family and have been very crafty my whole life. So I thought why not look into selling my items and using my talent. I researched a little and came across Etsy. So I started my little “shop” and that has been another trial. You see I am horrible at picture taking and no one knows me on Etsy so its pictures they see. So when that wasn’t doing well I turned to coupons to help out.
One of my most favorite sites is Raining Hot Coupons. So one day I am on the site and see a wedding dress giveaway. I am reading all the entries and saying “wow I am not the only one in this world with problems”. As I kept reading I kept thinking I wish I could help some how. I just didn’t know how, and then I thought WAIT I just did a wedding hair piece for a bride in
who wrote back to me saying how she REALY REALLY loved my work and that she would love to tell the world. HEY I THOUGHT that’s IT. I’m going to donate a hair piece. Maybe it’s not much but it is something. How incredible I started to feel knowing that I could help Florida ONE person on her special day.
I then wrote a comment on the Raining Hot Coupons website site saying I would like to donate a hair accessory. I didn’t hear back from anyone that day so I went back the next and couldn’t find my post. LOL who knows what I did, I sometimes have my moments. So I sent another message and
OMG the owner of the website responded saying that she would love to accept my offer. I AM SO thrilled.
The contest was held and the winner was chosen. Please read her story at the link I provided below. This young lady is incredible and so deserving of this wonderful dress and hair accessory.
Honestly I offered this hair accessory for my own selfish reasons. I
JUST love to make others happy. It gives me so much joy. I was not walking home last night I was gliding. I was so so happy for this young lady that my cheeks hurt from smiling.
Sometimes it pains me that I will never have a wedding day celebration with my daughter but what I will have is a hand in making someone special wedding day the day of her dreams. So while GOD smacked me in the face with one hand he caressed my face with his other hand.
I’m just saying all of this so that others in this world will learn to appreciate life and PLEASE every chance you get do something good for others. You will be amazed how good it feels to help someone even if it is as small as providing a hair accessory to someone deserving.
Also if there is anything that you would like to donate to this special ladies day please contact me and I will provide the information to the family.